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My (white-American) mother came home today and asked me if I thought a lot about 9/11 today. I basically told her I didn’t care. It happened 13 years ago, for those families it’ll always be awful, but for the rest of us we need to move the fuck on.
She didn’t really respond. But then I remembered, 9/11 happens to mean completely different things to her and I. In my life, memorializing 9/11 is a reminder to white America that brown folks are not to be trusted.
In my mother’s life, memorializing 9/11 is remembering a tragedy.
Race is hard for a lot of people. Being in a family of three distinct skin tones opens up more cans of worms than are worth my time.
It also leads down a path where unless I settle down with a half-African that looks like me (read: light-skinned as fuck) I will be in an interracial relationship. And these familial misunderstandings of race and societal space will follow me my entire life.
I am not saying don’t have mixed-race babies. I am saying teach that child about race. Teach that child to be assertive about who they are. Teach that we don’t live in a post-racial society. Teach them that that is okay. Teach them how to be okay.
Anonymous asked: So you are into computer programming now? I am also trying to get into it, but I don't even know where to begin.
Yes, but let me explain. My Freshman year of college I used to visit my friends’ programming lectures. I understood nothing.
Then two years ago, I took a semester off of school. I had finished all the Arabic classes Michigan State offered. I didn’t know what I was doing. I realized that I didn’t want a job in politics and programming sounded much more intriguing. But I was saving money to go to Eritrea so I was focusing on that.
So in four years, I downloaded hundreds of computer programming resources, but I had no idea what I wanted to do.
The thing people (including myself) don’t realize about coding is that it is like a toolbox. How many professions carry a toolbox: plumbers, electricians, carpenters, fashion designers, etc…
Your coding knowledge will differ completely based on your profession or interest. So, you should be filling your toolbox with programming languages and applications that will allow you to further your goals.
But sometimes, you’re like me and you’re unsure of what that is. I have decided to go down two routes - front end/back end web development and data analysis.
From there I was able to figure out which programming languages seemed most applicable and which subject areas (woohoo statistics) I needed to focus on.
Now, I am a visual learner more than an audio learner. So books are my go to, but there are plenty of programming resources on youtube for the audio people.
As far as books, I’d definitely try to find the most recent editions (standards seem to change a mile a minute in this industry). My trick is go on Amazon, find the book you want and then google search filetype:pdf title of book. 9/10 times I’ve found the exact book I was looking for. Download and read away.
If this is all too much and you just want an informative taste, I’d check out CS50 on youtube. It’s a Harvard course. All the lectures are there. It is a course meant for students with no previous programming experience.
First Eritrean in the NFL.
Since I’ve been home I’ve been trying to detox from the highly negative arena of politics.
I’ve come to some interesting conclusions about life this past year. And I’ve realized that it is of utmost importance to do what makes you happy with people who make you happy.
I’ve been throwing myself into computer programming. And I realized I have no friends to send really lame programming jokes I find. It’s unfortunate.
But it’s less unfortunate than feeling like you’re drowning while trying to participate in really emotionally-charged political debates with white kids who lack that same emotional investment.
When you find out your boyfriend doesn’t know Khartoum is the capital of Sudan…